Our
Christmas
visit to the
nunnery.
In the bare
parlour, on
their wooden
chairs,
bored with
unseasonal
austerity,
the children
fidget, give
resentful
stares.
Footsteps
behind the
shuttered
double
grill.
A question
asked, and
then the
boards fold
back,
and tiny,
beaming
rosy-cheeked
Estelle
is there to
greet us,
wimpled,
robed in
black.
On our side
of the
barrier, we
bring
tidings of
births,
engagements,
marriages,
and all the
canticles of
families:
these are
the songs
she wants to
hear us
sing.
Her own
short
antiphon is
quickly
said:
garden, and
holy texts,
and holy
bread.
Here she has
lived for
over forty
years,
worshipping
God and
praying for
the dead.
The gift we
bring her is
the
tenderness
of children,
whom she
sees but
cannot hold.
The gift she
makes to us
is
innocence,
which we can
neither
parcel nor
enfold.
- David
Morphet 2003